A spill of my heart ...
Posted on Tuesday, May 04, 2010
Is this Tuesday?? Gosh, I do not even realize that the time is running so fast.. One thing for sure, I barely have time to cherish and indulge my own self since the new deadline began. Only "Articles, News, Events, Reports and a lot more..." which fulfilled my overburden mind these days. Though I tried to follow my friend suggestion that I have to make two grins where there was only a grouch before .. (thought this was useless) as my day will be the same day by day ^-^.Then, I remembered that I have a blog! Sure, the best way to cherish myself by sharing what I am feeling these days..
Return to the day when I was in college, I had a good time and slight talks with my best friends about going to the new phase of our life (have a job) was awesome. Hence, the reality would not as good as we imagined. I am not saying that I hate my job, I even too love it. I love to be a copywriter, truthfully. Still, many things would happen beyond your expectation and make you sooo upset (outstrip your broken heart). Once I found my article was rejected by the over-senior Ed. in Chief, whilst I had given my biggest effort to write this. Huaaa... I cried when I read her e-mail that especially sent to me complete with her sharp-points words. Felt so down and useless as I had spent three-days (3 hours sleeping) to do my best and the result was ....... NOTHING. Then I decided to get rid of writing any articles for a week! (women' sulk might be took longer than anything in this world, right??)
Then I asked my self why did I do this? Must I resign and give up with it? I share what I was feeling to my lovely mom . She said "life is like this, darling. Don't worry about anyone sayings, she might be thought that you're as good as she was, she just want you to be more professional. I know that you're so in love, even too love with your new job now and did anything as best as you can, but you have to remember that you have a limit too, don't push your self too much. It's not fair if you blamed yourself and drawn out with this problem. Get up and try to fix your article then show it to her that you could do it. Don't even care if she didn't like your writings at least you try." Ohh... I was melting when my mom said this to me then trying to restore my heart to re-write again. and I did it! I revised my article then sent it to her. Was she approved or glad?? Not at all, she didn't even follow up my revised article till now. Hahahaha .... I don't care, at least I do my best!
Lessons to learn:
1. sometimes 'too' love of something is not really good at all. Once you find yourself dissapointed of it, the effect is soooooo bad for your life.
2. Try to appreciate what someone had done to you even if for the smallest things, cuz you don't know the efforts before you.
3. Do your best and leave the rest to God, trust me it will make you better day by day.
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